Knowing

I find myself continually contemplating knowledge and truth.

It seems almost absurd to try to grasp reality through intellectual musings. I have found myself encircling ideas of essence and existence without cessation. Often my philosophical wanderings lead me to surrender to insignificance.
Yet,

I cannot handle living within a void

And
I need to deal with the world despite intellectual uncertainty
about everything

But I have hope

By giving up the idea of conclusive reasoning, one can begin to strip away the layers of cognition that barricade intuition and wonder.
I can once again begin to feel
and react

to the mystical surroundings in which I am embedded

I am allowing myself to act in ways that make little rational sense, but ritualistically compel me
I am attempting to feel the light that exudes from each human being
I am giving up the idea of control over my existence

And now with coupled rationality and childlike mysticism

I can be